Our Story
I am going to keep some details out because this is a deeply personal story. But, as your mama, I need to tell you some things that I am learning in this journey. I need to write it now so that I don't forget. I need to share this with others because the truths that God is teaching me can encourage others in the same or similar situations. The older I get the more I realize that I do not understand. In that state of grasping for truth and understanding, I have to simply trust. Searching for understanding is a good thing, but trust is needed every step of the way. And, in searching for understanding, I have to realize that the most important things to understand are eternal. This world, and the brokenness in it, are temporary, and therefore not very important in the grand scheme of things.
2 Corinthians 4:18English Standard Version (ESV)
18 as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
There is a very apparent brokenness and evil in this world, some caused by personal sin and some caused by the effects of that first sin in the garden. This world is broken. For us, right now, we have come face to face with one aspect of this world's brokenness. We have found out information about our genes that reveal why certain things have happened. In the midst of this and working through all of the feelings of grief that it brings up, I have to cling to truth. It grieves me most to know that you will have to work through these things as well. To know that something in me caused all of this for you. So many hurdles that I would take away in an instant if given the opportunity. So many losses that this one thing causes. It would be much easier to work through this if it just involved me, but it very closely affects two people that I care so much about. But here is the truth that I cling to.
1. God made you perfectly.
I know that God is in control. I know that He is sovereign. I don't claim to have a full understanding of this truth by any means. But I KNOW this is true. I BELIEVE this is true. If I focus on the circumstances in the here and now and forget the big picture, I can get caught in grief and forget this truth. But God IS in control. For whatever reason, He has allowed this to happen.